I relate to your feelings. An organized person, i have always tried to use planning as a protection against failure. I now know there is so much change flinging the unexpected our way that we have no chance of everything going as we decree. I was always post-reflective and pre-reflective, but now know I can't change the past or have much influence on the future. I am trying to live in the moment more which means hiccups in my idea of today don't bother me as much. i had to learn to put down the camera and just respond without recording, to leap at what needs to be done without worrying about how well I do it.
I relate to your feelings. An organized person, i have always tried to use planning as a protection against failure. I now know there is so much change flinging the unexpected our way that we have no chance of everything going as we decree. I was always post-reflective and pre-reflective, but now know I can't change the past or have much influence on the future. I am trying to live in the moment more which means hiccups in my idea of today don't bother me as much. i had to learn to put down the camera and just respond without recording, to leap at what needs to be done without worrying about how well I do it.